A Love Poem About Love
I only ever wanted to love you.
To hold you like an overgrown infant
In my swaddling arms.
To squeeze you till your eyebrows bellowed,
To amaze, electrocute and tantalize with kisses
The shallow canyon at the back of your neck…
To cut your long hair into a bob with a karate chop…
To graffiti my name in micro flora across your backside,
To sob the sadness of childhood -
(The betrayals, the put downs,
The spell when I had the mumps,
The day mammy roared at me in the hallway
And bursted my balloon)
- Whilst butting my crown against the curve of your hip.
I only ever wanted
To protect you.
To power-slam drug dealers and muggers
And to clothesline noisy neighbours,
So that you may adore me in peace.
I wanted to show off all my broken bits
And take comfort in the warmth of your acceptance.
Which in turn would have created a hopeful environment
Where I might accept myself.
I only wanted to make you pregnant
So I could tell myself
That surely we’d be connected
Forever ever ever ever ever more.
I only wanted you to bolster me.
To gum up the cracks of my self doubt
With the spackle of your admiration.
Oh Máire…Oh Máire…
Why did you leave me?